jus coming back from xiao hui's 21st chalet.. ok.. not bad.. but xh seems very busy.. a month later.. u see i am the one who busy le.. same place.. same catering but diff food i think.. haha..

is jus a 21st bday.. y do it so big? i dunno y.. jus follow wat ppl usually do.. actually got abit regret bking chalet.. cos feel dat it is not my style to celebrate bday.. a simple outing with a grp of my frens will be nice le.. whatever.. cos i already bk.. wat can i do? n i haf invite ppl le.. btw.. i prefer 22nd bday.. haha.. cos my fav no... haha..

wat do i wan for this bday? those who haf no idea wat to buy? maybe can get some tips from here.. haha.. no lah.. actually i really dun mind wat ppl give.. if din give also fine for me.. cos this chalet is jus to serve as a gathering for frens dat din see each other for a long time.. jus wanna bring my fren together.. meet meet them..

ok.. think i dun expect so much 1st.. if not, i will feel disappointed in the end..

last week of work.. finally can relax abit but it also mean no more income for me.. sad sia..
this coming sun will be going for camp.. will be the last time being a cook.. and will be the last time going camp as sp student.. club member.. after this camp, it can say that club is not any of my business anymore.. somehow feel quite lost.. two n a half yr spending in club.. den now going to leave soon.. feel abit she bu de.. she bu de the ppl there.. the club hse dat after sch i will always go.. a place dat i haf spend most of my time.. a place dat haf alot of memories..

how i join club?
yr 1 the 1st semester.. i was jus a student that dun like to join event n camp.. siqi had already joined some of the event from this club.. she keep asking me to join.. but i always reject her.. cos i dun like to interact with new ppl.. cos i wont take the initative to talk to ppl.. if no one will talk to me.. i will keep as quiet as possible.. so i rather dun join any thing.. to avoid any awkward..

so i was jus a student that go sch study then after sch jiu go hm.. sometime go tuition for my retake english o level.. boring life..

yr 1 semester 2.. find that my poly life is so bored.. so tot of joining something to occupy my time.. den jiu like dat joined le club..

wat the 1st thing i do for club?
help club do the ang bao thingy.. haha.. ya.. den help up in social n project com de ktv.. den jiu bei mindy ask for doing FO..

still rmb the meeting.. think i wont forget ba.. think most our yr de were there.. mindy's yr de also.. think cos our yr haf not enough ppl.. so they will jus gan cheong for the FO.. rmb this que..
"who wanna do FO? who dun wanna do FO? if no one wanna do FO, we will do it ourselves." this is mindy's yr de say de.. sound serious for me at dat time.. so jiu like dat do le FO..

during FO..
i was the qm for camp.. wat is qm? quarter master in full.. is pack thingy de.. no need do game report.. it sound simple.. but i still feel stress when doing this job.. but after everything finish jiu can feel the man zu gan.. i was a ga in telematch also.. it's a coolest thing.. cos we haf to be painted from head to toes.. i like the painting part.. but i dun like to lead the grp.. i jus not the person who can lead grp ba..

yr 2..
i was a mc in the club.. interim.. with stanlon as com head of social com.. den sessional with heyi as com head in social com also.. noe more ppl by dat time.. be a com head is not dat easy also.. feel stress.. think i do wat will also stress de.. i am jus a stressy person.. haha..

wat i can say is i haf learn alot in this club.. really is diff yr learn diff thingy..

all the best to future CADC..
n for the coming FO.. hope it will be a successful one.. jia you..

this morning i nearly cant get into the office.. cos my colleague went jb.. other colleagues seldom go office so early.. n i haf no key to the office.. so i call one of my colleague.. n heng he is on the way to the office le.. if not, with today weather i think i will melt outside the office.. haha..

i feel tired very easy recently.. feel my energy level getting lower n lower.. i think i suffer from illness of tiredness again.. haha.. whole day will feel tired.. especially after apointment.. dat's worse.. become no soul.. restless.. going to die soon.. i dunno wat happen to me.. izzit the job is too stress? no.. cos i have been working for months.. where are those invisible pressure come from? i have decided to work till end of this month.. at 1st i tot i can work till opening school.. but with present condition think i can work till this month is already a bonus.. though i really wanna help them.. i cant take it anymore.. sound like this job is not gd.. no no no.. everyone dun misunderstand.. this job is fine.. my colleagues r all very gd.. is my prob.. think i still cant used to working life.. i jus dunno how to handle some stuff properly..

i not as capable as i used to be anymore.. i cant handle thing well now.. i cant rest well now.. i cant stop my brain from working.. i cant take thing easy now.. i am not the past me anymore.. i have change.. not dat happy-go-lucky person dat i used to be.. i maybe look like one.. but i am not.. maybe i have grown up.. so i think alot.. maybe becos of the past.. i have changed.. maybe i have reach another stage of life.. so i have to try to adapt to it.. or maybe my brain think faster than my age.. maybe my life is really dat boring.. maybe becos of the environment and surrounding.. is we change the environment or environment change us?

i wanna be a simple me like some of u.. think simple.. work simple.. live simple..

use one word to describe myself.. entangled.. my brain is entangled with thoughts.. my brain cells r dying.. pity those cells which live in my brain.. u all suffered too much..

i feel tired again.. my mood gone.. recently i dun haf any appetite.. but i still force myself to eat.. cos i dunno when i will be hungry again.. n think i getting fatter n fatter.. i going to leave soon.. go malaysia.. cos my grandpa's bday.. back by sun.. den mon work again.. the routine goes.. i noe i can do it.. without anyone's help.. if i use the old way.. wo bu ren xin n she de.. so i going to find a new n better way..

i over estimated myself too much.. think really no one bother dat much.. only i did.. really think too much.. something is jus over n dat's it fullstop.. den i keep think it and make it more complicated.. enough for all this zhi yi wei, assumption.. stop it.. i really tired le.. i finally choose a more easy way out..

lei huai le..

last day of itp but haf to work till end of march.. tml jiu consider grad le.. haha.. lau le lah.. haha..
so now waiting for the result of uni.. hopefully can go in cos i wanna stay in student shu se.. hee..

ya.. wat haf i been doing this few weeks?
go annual reception 2006..
cut my hair..
go for driving test.. pass haha..
book my bday's chalet le.. one night at changi aloha.. 22/04/06
apply member for renting comic..
read comic and xiao shuo.. too many le.. den keep mix up the storyline.. haha..
tml going watch movie.. final destination 3.. haha.. finally..
sat go k lunch at marina..

read finish a set comic.. tou tou ai zhe ni.. nice.. haha..
next comic.. i wanna rent tian shi hong he an.. nice too.. cos i read finish bk 1 & 2 le.. haha..

xiao hui's 21st bday yao dao le.. haha.. wat to buy for her? erm.. haha.. zao jiu xiang dao le.. dun tell u.. cos is a surprise.. wahaha..

erm.. my chalet booked le.. but haven invite ppl.. inviting soon.. so jus leave 22 april free jiu dui le.. hehe..