i'm back...

today's feeling... sad again.. just now happen le something.. think is all my fault.. just now like having a slient quarrel.. cos is thru' sms.. think ur mood now is really low ba.. u finally realise dat there is a problem in our relationship liao.. but the problem is not lies on u is on me.. i noe ar.. actually i already noe that i haf the problem liao.. dat is not open enough... but i haf try to be open le.. dang u go for ur field camp.. that period i told myself i should be more open to u... so from ur 1st day in field camp till the last day of field camp.. i everyday send u sms(i noe u will not reply ar but i still send lor).. to tell u wat happen on dat day n everything.. den everytime the sms will more than 4 pages long(i really haf alot of thing to tell u) lor.. thought u can read when u come back but really too bad... u can only receive the last msg i haf send u.. u noe y i wanna keep thing to myself n dont tell u face to face cos i scared when i say out le both of us will be unhappy.. to avoid unhappiness so i keep thing to myself lor.. but now i found out dat it is not always true dat keeping thing can avoid unhappiness... now also same ar.. i keep thing to myself both of us will feel more unhappy lor..

but now still haf another problem... is the sianz problem.. i noe when i tired i will look sianz.. so is not going out with u so i sianz lor.. is i really tired.. i dunno leh.. it just can't help lor.. i will automatic look sianz when tired de leh.. wat can i do.. i noe when u see me sianz.. u also will feel sianz.. i noe ar.. really sorry for making u sianz.. i not gu yi de.. wat can i do? who can help me?

fan na...
fan lor.. got many thing to fan lor.. study lah, relationship lah, n bla bla bla... tests coming.. very sianz.. but no choice haf to study.. really scared i cannot make it sia.. fri just hand in a project.. den realise dat i din really finish the assignment... yue zhen y u become like le?.. last year u not like dat de leh.. y become so careless liao?.. yue zhen u really useless liao.. change le.. become so slack.. y? actually i very stress also lor.. dunno y?.. this yr like very packed sometime like no time lor.. am i really too committed to club liao? should i hack care abit? i dunno..

words to..
[rosalind: dun too stress lah.. dun xiang those you de mei you de thingy lah.. wat.. no yi yi staying in this world lah.. u ben ben de leh.. every problem will haf solution de lor.. like ur study yesterday u go remedial le den ur doubt solve le rite.. so be happy ba.. got ppl more stress than u lor.. haha.. :D]

[cynthia: think u no worry abt ur study de lah.. u say u becoming slack also.. n ur result got abit dui bu le.. i think is just zhan shi xin de lah.. this wed u got test rite.. i think u can do it de lor.. so study hard n good luck for ur test.. hee..]

[everyone: all my frenz.. gd luck for the coming tests..]

feeling sad now..

tml u go field camp le.. cannot tok to u for abt 7 days.. den this weekends u also cannot book out.. but today de conversation also the same.. sianz sianz de.. but at least i got say wat i wanna say to u de.. but u just haf nothing to tell me.. n just say tml 5am u need to wake up n tell me to do my thing lor.. ya just like dat... nothing more le.. jiu jiang we tok not more than 10min.. u noe after i put down the phone.. i feel very sad n disappointed.. n almost wanted to cry..

when writting this blog half way..
u msg me.. now my feeling is abit ruan.. feel abit happy, abit sad... happy at least u msg me something.. tell me not to worry abt u(u noe.. is hard not to worry abt u).. sad.. dunno y.. see ur msg jiu xiang yao cry.. i think i will miss u ba.. this few days..

change song le... "Dreaming of u"..

today outside whole day..

today very early jiu wake up le.. cos haf to send jonathan off to perth.. as i mention in the previous post.. he is going perth for 4 yrs to study.. den our yr de got who go ne? erm... yida, xiaohui, rosalind n me lor.. den rosalind hor..very emotional leh.. just see him only jiu cry liao.. but hor i think last few days she also got cry lah.. cos her eyes got abit swollen.. aiyo.. rosalind ar.. sha de.. he will come back de lor.. no need to cry until like dat de mah.. hee.. 4 yrs very fast de lah.. he also will come back during his holiday de mah.. so dun cry liao hao mah?..

today chat alot with rosalind.. i din xiang guo dat i can tell u so many things de lor.. actually sometime is not i dun wanna tell my thingy out de.. is becos i haf no feeling n sometime is i cant find the rite person to talk to.. but dunno y today i can say alot sia.. maybe got feeling ba.. hee... but anyway thank to be my listener.. haha..

today din meet u.. hope u dun mind hor(i haf explain to u liao.. sorry leh..).. thank for being so understanding.. but hao cai tml we can still meet.. although tml can only meet for a few hrs only but i think is enough lor.. cos is better than cannot meet mah.. rite? i noe next weekends u cant book out cos u haf to go field camp liao.. den cant even talk to each other on phone lor.. so u must hao hao de take care urself.. must be careful leh.. cos i noe u r injury prone.. so when ur next book out.. i wanna see a hao hao de ni hor.. promise? den i think u dun need to worry abt me de cos i will be fine here.. just only sometime got abit stress.. hee.. u fan xin go ur field camp ba.. cya tml..

[to jingsi]
happy 17th birthday.. u noe to buy ur present, there is a "funny story" beside it.. cos i ask yvonne wat u like.. den she list down some thingy lah.. den i saw the fruit basket lor.. den i ask her wat dat.. izzit u like those put fruit de basket.. den she "haha" me lor(btw i ask her thru msg lah).. make me pai seh sia.. but ok lah still manage to buy the "correct" fruit basket.. hee.. so old le 1 yr liao.. got any wishes mah? but.. dun say it out hor.. or it will not come true de.. haha..

yOz.. mi hui lai le...

together 2 mths le.. see like only 2 mth only rite.. but i feel like we together quite long liao.. dunno y leh.. hehe.. this 2nd mth again cannot celebrate on the actual date.. but nvm.. at least sat we haf pu hui qu le.. hehe... i really enjoy dat day.. although we walked quite alot(i got complain abit lah..hee).. haha.. but i din regret walking with u.. i noe u tried very hard to recall how to go to the spot where can see the best view of firework... i saw le.. really nice.. den u ask me gao xin ma? den i reply u n say.. hai man gao xin de.. i noe u got abit sad cos i say "man" n ans with abit mono tone.. actually i want to say i really happy n really like it de.. but i just shuo bu chu kou.. i think i really 'lan' in saying my feelings in words.. so everytime i haf to wait to the end of the day den send msg to u n tell u my feelings(i really "lan" rite?)... actually sometime i got alot alot of things n feelings to tell u.. but i just dunno how to say them out.. i really hope someday i can tell u all my feelings from my own mouth... i just dun wan keep all to myself n one day i may regret dat i din say all my feelings out.....

[p.s finally my blog haf song again.. from FIR... wo men de ai.. i wanna dedicate the song to all my frenz(although it is a sad song but nan de got song.. den jiu jiang jiu dian.. hee..)]

[to stubborn de rosalind: i think u really sick liao.. so i bai tuo ni go see doc lah.. dont so stubborn leh.. it maybe a small flu but it may lead to a more worse 1 leh.. so old liao still dunno how to take care of urself.. haiz...hee.. u take care hor..]

[to super grad, jonathan: going to perth(for 4 years).... erm... ur 1st impression to me.. hmm.. actually not dat gd leh.. cos u look quite fierce when dun talk.. but get to noe u abit liao.. cai fa xian.. when come to serious thing u will be very serious but when get to play u can be very siao n funny.. so.. overall u r still a nice n great senior..haha.. hope u can haf fun there n can study hard.. take care..]

[to heyi, my partner in social com: 1st time working with u.. but think dat u r really not bad.. today 1st discussion u perform well.. keep it up.. jia you.. hope we can work well during this whole sessional period.. :)]