at rui ting's 21st bday celebration..
last night is cool..
is a great gathering.. gossiping.. laughing.. joking.. haa..

we haf grown up.. but the feel is still there.. i feel comfortable still.. no awkward..

though all of us go our own way.. but i dun feel any barrier in between.. we r still the same.. ya..

1st laugh.. last night 2 chairs broken.. one is broke by someone we dunno.. so we laugh laugh jiu suan le.. but the 2nd one.. is broke by wan ting.. she wanna knee wif 1 leg on the chair.. den suddenly a loud crack is heard.. haha.. the chair is break.. haha.. dat's funny.. me n elvina laugh dao~ conclusion we haf made last night.. the chair can only support weigh more than 50kg.. so wan ting ar.. eat more ba.. haha.. think i will post the chair's pic when i get it.. haha..

2nd laugh.. bye bye arm issue.. only ppl at there know.. a sincere bye bye from rui ting.. is double bye oh.. haha..

there is a majong session last night.. lost $1.50.. haha.. will be continue next wk in wan ting's chalet.. haf to prepare more coins..

we tot of having a chalet someday.. think will be quite fun.. looking forwards for dat.. ya.. haha..

wanna wish rui ting n wan ting an advance happy 21st birthday.. stay pretty.. ya..

this friendships will never end.. it's forever..

2 nights din get enough slp.. think really going to become wat's jing si always called me le.. panda..

my favourite past time - slp.. now become a fear to me.. unless i can closed le eyes jiu slp.. if not.. it will be bothering me.. no matter how tired.. i jus cant closed my eyes jiu slp.. toss n turn.. think n think.. i really wish i can haf nothing to think for a moment.. wat's happen to me? i jus wanna comfortably slp.. zhen de shi wan well n tight slp..

i am too.. arrgh..

when i am alone.. i tend to think alot.. dat's y "thinking" like to attack me when i'm going to slp..

i haf 2 me.. am i gd in hidding? everyone hide..

at 1st.. i am quite looking forwards to the camp.. cos it can give me a break of my daily routine(slp-work-online)..
being there.. realised the feel is not there anymore..
the reason i go for the camp is also wanna help the cook..
but no help is needed..
so wat haf i done there?
lied here n there.. wanna get into slp..
haa.. funny rite.. go camp slp..
den wat can i do? most of them i dunno.. den got nothing to do..

i am dat anti-social..

though all the time i seem slping.. i din really slp.. i cant slp.. the only time i haf fall aslp is before the interview.. jus awhile..
the rest of the time really cant slp.. the moment i closed my eyes.. my mind start working.. it dun wanna let me slp..
the toughest time for me is the time before i really fall aslp..
every night is also like dat.. very xin ku.. sometime really wish i could bang myself to slp..

i am dat you yu.. zhi bi..

alot of thingy i haf keep to myself.. i need someone to tok to.. i need release..

my eyes always betrayed me.. the more i avoid the more i feel xin xu..
y cant i look straight into the eyes? i am afraid my eyes will tell the truth..
eek.. when do i wanna avoid till?

i found out another prob le.. think my gastric got prob le.. sometime feel guai guai de.. dun feel like eating though i haf not eat much before dat.. last night it happen again.. feeling got abit like FO camp dat time.. but the gd thing is i dun feel like vomiting.. jus no wei kou.. so last night i din eat anything.. wat's happen to my body system? getting weaker n weaker.. is a sign of getting old?

think after last night.. i wanna consider whether wanna go for the other camp in future.. i dun wish to go there slp again.. i am jus a pig.. go where slp where.. i noe is also got abit too much.. cos everyone is busy doing their thingy n feel tiring.. i go there do nothing jiu slp.. is like my hse no bed izzit? i really got so tired meh? i jus wanna apologise for last night sleepy-ness.. i am jus a extra there taking out space for slping..
but btw i really need alot of slp.. cos i got not enough slp everyday..

i am suffering from "wu fa hao hao lu mian zheng"

tired..
headache..
fingers dry n crack..
back pain..
not enough slp..

after doing this job.. i am become weaker..

i am not because of the money..
i am not like this job..

i work for the seek of working..

everyday i complain tired.. i really feel tired..
y so xin ku still wanna work?
can leave anytime rite? i am jus a part timer..

is the responsiblity..
i jus cant leave like dat.. they may face prob after dat.. e.g. short of staff..
i will think alot when making a decision..

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last night before i slp.. my mind start working again..
haf u ever think dat if tml u r dying.. wat would u do today? wat last words would u tell ur family n frens?

is so sad.. i cry while i am thinking abt it..

haf nothing better to think.. pop up this silly qns..

jay chou's songs really will make ppl feel moody when listen to them..
last night i rmb i having an action-pack dream.. suddenly i listened dao jay chou's gui ji.. it wake me up(is ard 2am+).. den realised my sis is playing the song.. den me jiu listen lor.. the more i listen the more i feel sad n moody.. it trigger my emotion.. hai me take quite some time to slp back again..

go cut hair n go highlighting jus now(btw few wk ago i jus cut hair also.. haha..).. not bad.. but the color not obivous i think..

sick of my blogskin.. wanna change it actually.. but lazy to find leh.. dunno wat to change.. haha.. so think when i am very free den look for it ba..

actually is not dat bad.. feeling relax now.. wat's a stupid slow me.. haha..
friend forever..

alot of frens's bday fall on this month.. most of them r 21st bday.. aiyo.. going to broke le.. haha..

blogging is the only thing i can do now..
now is the owner of 3 blogs.. haha.. wu liao ba?
but li hai de shi.. all 3 blogs contain diff thingy..
so many thingy to write? haha.. jus some thoughts n feelings..

wat i want the most now? is.. erm.. get enough slp.. i am so tired..

p.s: i wanna go ktv.. sing out loud..
sentosa.. sun-tanning, kayaking n play vball..
overseas.. relax n enjoy life..

i am very tired physcially n mentally..

i haf no off day this wk.. so poor thing..

i haf to make my brain to stop thinking..
repeat saying "stop thinking" till i slp.. think this will work?

watever.. who care.. as long no more bothers for u.. ok.. STOP..

my fingers got very dry this few days.. they r very rough.. eek.. very irritating..
ya.. jus realised that everyday my hand will haf a cut somewhere.. how i get it? i dunno..

think i going to stop working in this end of month.. is time to rest..

i haf bad day everyday..
customers make my day worse..
customers r not always right..
their attitude like shit sometime..

today is 06/06/06..